Symphora

story.

2010-08-05T08:48:00.000-07:00

I'm not always here...but I dont knw...
I feel I have to post something in here....

leah..she has the right to love that somebody..but she knows that she has to leave so that he can love someone else...even though she knws in his heart...he too love her as much...but he can't make a choice between two greater loves and that is why he don't want to let go of leah...but leah knows better...she make the sacrifice to be out of his life...and continue with hers...it will give her so much pain and lost if she don't...i soo admire her courage...

Surabaya Trip

2009-11-08T23:22:00.000-08:00

4 days 3 nights

Mount Bromo...2/October/2009 to 5/October/2009.
I fell in love for the first time....

The people,the environment,the atmosphere...
Such a beautiful place to travel with friends...

Took a jeep early in the cold dry morning(4am)...and drove all the way up
to the mountain near Volcano.Bromo ... Took pictures of course...
The horizon is breathtaking...Though there are many others there to share
the experience with me...

I even rode a horse for the first time!!
A 5 year old beautiful golden mare...I think the owner of the mare is younger than me...
I never thought I be so close with a steaming volcano.A trilling experience I will
never forget...
I heard there was a sudden small eruption happen 2 years age, some guy got killed...

We stayed over at Royal Tretes HOtel,at night...some girls smoked in our room balcony.I guess I joined in too just for fun and watched a horror flick.The next morning, we sang karoake and ate breakfast. We were the first one there.I guess the best Hotel I went so far.

Next destination,we went to the safari zoo...see the lions,tigers,bears up close...But I felt trapped like the animals living there...

Janna hated "horse tea" which in truth was just Jasmine Tea...hahaha!
Me.Wendy. taunted her...with it...hehehee!

last day
We went shopping,I bought a Puma Jacket.
At night,got promoted to Vice-Secretary for OAC committee...I never thought I could get selected...
We didn't sleep...the girls gone up to SanSan,Aida and Fida's room for our night supper and watched Indonesian Drama(Quite touching)...
Hani got her wish eating Mee Bakso even though it was only cup noodles...

I had enough...

2009-11-07T11:24:00.000-08:00

I'm going to lead my own life from now on.No more false hopes and dreams.Let it flow inside my body like a river heading into the ocean.It's over for me and him and all the idiotic imbeciles l will eventually meet in th future. Mr.L,my sweet...goodbye and good riddance. I just wanna have fun and ain't nobody gonna stop me. dengit i have cuts on three of my fingers. but somehow I feel great nevertheless cos' I knw I will never feel worthless with the likes of anybody's ridiculous opinions of me. I think I already like my new self right now.damn,it feels so good to be free.ohh, The Nanny show is on,gotta watch it!! bye peeps!!

Friends

2009-08-23T21:31:00.000-07:00

For my dearest and lovable friends...If I'm being selfish for not posting your pictures and my thoughts here...I'm sooo sorry!!Its not like I don't want to,darlz..all of you are in my memories inside my head..I will never forget..hahaa!
But I will try...don't worry!
For me,this blog is protect the identity of my friends and family members and the people whom I knw...
so I can be a little discreet about my life...hehehe
Soooo sooorrryy...my lovies!!

happy yet tired...

2009-07-11T07:32:00.000-07:00

Is feeling better...
but so tired...
why am I being avoided or is it me that avoiding them? I guess both sides are plausible...Whatever...
I can always move on to other personal pursuits...even if there are things that I don't really want to indulge with at the moment...
Especially..the "it"....

Although...having a little bit of fun won't hurt..

... been thinking...

2009-07-02T13:08:00.000-07:00

I've been thinking...the past few weeks...
about my life...there is something missing..I'm not sure... a gap...yes..a really big gap...but the thing is ...somehow I know what it is...and I can't tell nobody about it...
I have a family who loves me..though its never spoken forthright...I have siblings to care for and..trustworthy friends who I always count on...Love..is never ending for me...I know I do love someone out there...that is not a problem...
I can't sleep these days....always worrying ...about something...

Tonight,I called my sister...to see how she was doing since she hadn't been home for three days now...I guess I was pretty worried for her...but its good she was alright...

Anyway..for now..I'm just glad everyone is safe and sound...

Goodnightz...

Haharhar

2009-06-19T07:29:00.000-07:00

I'm starting on making scripts for any sort of story...
hopefully half-finishing it...hahaa
anihuu....what is wrong with Micheal in Prison Break 4!!! Noooo...He's not going to get cancer..is he??!!! Sara and him are so close to be together!!! The producer better make them two alright or else!!

Pictures of him...bebeh...

They look so nice together...only in the drama series...real life..he's mine...bwahaahaa..lol..no...

Pictures...

2009-06-12T01:38:00.001-07:00

this is taken during my trip to marriot hotel!! Whoop!
I have more...but I lazy to put it on up here...

Everyday is a new day

2009-06-12T01:32:00.000-07:00

My parents are coming back soon from Australia next week, weee!!
Praying for their safe journey back,heheehe...

Oh yeah,my cuzzin Aliff is coming back too! Yeah! Long time haven't see him in person!
He is going to do his NS here in Singapore...muahahaa..pity him...
But he knows how to drive sia!!And he's same age with me lagi..baskett...
Too bad,he doesn't have a licence yet..muahaha

Lalalaala

2009-06-04T07:55:00.000-07:00

Once you make a new friend... you have the responsibility to uphold their trust on you...

When time is concern, love take cares of everything....

There is no love lost between siblings even if we did the most stupidest of things.

they are just words but I already make them principles in my mind...
Shaolin Showdown....>sorry, random...

Woooo!!! PRISON BREAK is On!!!
Shoot I wonder whats going to happen to Micheal and Sara in the end!!!
there better be happy ending...

Smiles

2009-06-04T07:36:00.000-07:00

okay...so me and him did have a bit of an affair...
that's all...we shared, we flirted...we understood each other...
but I knew in my heart...I could never love him back...and he knew too...
Now, we are history... memories kept even if its a short time..
the reason are simple actually...we both know we were deeply hurt...recently...
we ran into each other to seek comfort... and because of that particular fact...we could not last at all...

but I am positive...things will become much more brighter for us someday...if we still believe...

Smiles...

:)

Girls In a Mini Red Car

2009-04-10T09:27:00.000-07:00

So my cute aunt has invited me and my cousin along to Malaysia.At first, I was considering whether to join her or not but what the heck...I wanted to get out of Singapore once more so I could escape the botheration of taking care of house chores and of course to accompany my aunt for an unforgettable holiday together....huhu...(take note to self...traveling is my passion in life...never forget)...Besides, my aunt said we would be staying at the Marriot Hotel for a day or two, so obviously I had no reason to refuse.Besides,who in the right mind wouldn't want to stay there?? So we went there, and damn....the place was huge! Although, I didn't like one of the hotelier in the reception area...We were trying our best to make him loosen up a little,he looked so tensed... its like he had no humour or something...sheesh...we're not going to scare ya... So chill...man....

Anihuuu, so we had ourselves a king size bed in our room and it fit all three of us.... We rest a little before going out at night to eat famous Satays at Kajang.
The next day, I went to explore the hotel and took pictures...alone...since my cousin and my aunt didn't want to get out of bed. I took pictures of the swimming pool mostly, too bad there were no hot guys in the pool...or I would have capture them too. Hoohohooo.... :P

Oh yeah, we also had fun playing snooker...I'm quite good in the first round even though It was my second time trying to play pool....my adorable aunt joined in too... we had a great time playing!! Although, my aunt tried to cheat by poking the balls into the holes....hahaa!
(Psst!...the bartender guy is sooo cutee, I can't help but ask more tokens from him....its true, he had dimples like Orlando Bloom!)

So yeah after that, we went to eat more Satays again ....they had nice karaoke over there too...
I don't really shop much but I bought myself a ring...thats good, isn't it? Fine, I admit..its pathetic...but I bought more pretzels,they were more exciting and not to forget,DELICIOUS... than looking for boring clothes!!

Oh right, when I helped paid our lunch expenses soon after that,I got bothered by the cashier..come on....I just wanna pay the bills k... ( He gave the change sooooo damn slow...that I got left behind alone...again...) Next time, I only let the men do that...at least that way,its not so time consuming...

On our last day, we packed....and Back To Singapore Babehh!

Girls in a Mini Red Car....

Update Yeah!

2009-03-04T11:10:00.000-08:00

Okay..Hello again..

As you all know...I lazy to type...
So..I'm going to ITE...going to do Info Tech. studies..
Hopefully I know how to upgrade myself more further...
But still..I'll never give up on my passion...so don't ya worry..

Okay...I don't have a boyfriend... if you guys out there want to know..
So stop asking me...I'm available or not...( Mind my bluntness)
Its just that I'm not the outgoing type...
Rather watch movies in the net at home than going out with you...
Feel welcome to join me...ahaha

I wish I'm working now..hmmm...
But I want to study first...

Saki Out...

Dunno.

2007-11-12T08:58:00.000-08:00

I don't say much...
but talking about my life story is really hard.I mean...I prefer to keep it in my head rather than boasting it all out sometimes.
I dunno...

hmmm...

Anyway,I'm going to Kunming,China this coming December. I'm excited as always.
The trip itself is very expensive.>_< However, I'm fortunate enough to have the school subsidise most of the expenses for my trip.Isn't that awesome?? Whatever it is, I'm very grateful to the school.Thank You,CCKss. We'll make you proud -_<

Okay, I'm glad to be paired up with QianYun.She's going to be my room mate too.Ahahaa...That's obvious isn't it?? I mean we are like the 2 only girls in our sec 4 level who are going for the trip!

Oh yeah, I'm grouped with Sze Siong,Clarence,QianYun and Firdaus.They are my team members.hmmm.... Have you notice that we are all Sec 4s here?? Yeah. There's a reason behind this too!
Although,I'm not too sure about the real reason...but one thing I'm certain is that...we hold an important job of all! I hate this...this means more work for us. -_-

Before our trip,we have to prepare all this information sheets for the other group members so that they will know what are their tasks and main objectives are. This also regards to their CIP there.Aarrgh...so troublesome....
But we have to do it...
*sigh*

I'm signing out...I'm tired..

BrickWall

2007-09-06T00:38:00.000-07:00

Thank you Fadzilla for the wonderful comments!
Please do come again and add more if you like...
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Yesterday, I went to see the Doctor at the nearby polyclinic.
I was feeling unwell and my stomach hurts real bad on that particular day.I wanted to throw up but I didn't.( No...I'm not pregnant!)
Fortunately, I'm alright now after taken my medication but my stomach still hurts. I think I have stomach flu or something...I'm not sure...really..

So anyway, what happened yesterday at the clinic....
The doctor told me to get a bloodtest to see whether or not there was some infection in my blood..
Guess what...there is...

At first, I obeyed the doctor's orders and waited for my turn to give my blood sample...
However, things started to change from bad to worst...
I was actually weeping silently during the whole process...In my mind,I kept saying,"I really hate injections! I really hate injections! Can I bail out from this!!"
I think I was the only 16 year old in the room going through that ordeal. I mean there were a lot of middle age and elderly people around me, and the only young people I've seen were a boy who was much older than me and a small cute little baby. They were all so calm and peaceful, unlike me who was the direct opposite. It was quite embarassing for me but heck, I'm a girl and I was too weak to think otherwise.

so...yeah...

Thats my story...

Tired

2007-08-31T20:36:00.000-07:00

I love watching Japanese Drama and Korean Movies...
I'm totally addicted to them. Their way of producing such great story lines is too evocative for me. I'm trying to learn their ways..hoping it will bring me benefits for my future job..
I just don't want to lead a normal life...ya know...
Although,I really need help in studying....

(Heheh...maybe that's why I rarely ..online...and chat with you guys...I guess..)
Anyhuuu...

My dream is to become a successful producer...
I like to see life as a movie to me..whereby nobody knows what their ending will be..
whether or not its a happy or sad...funny or dead on serious...and even a mystery...>I like mystery ones...

Anyway,
my passion...is to create imaginative stories...
maybe thats why I dreamt a lot in class...(I even sleep during lessons..quite obvious 4 the one sitting next to me)

But first, I have to change my ways in order to pursue my dreams...
I need my faith...right now...

2007-08-15T06:37:00.000-07:00

Is this real?...

Man...blogs...

They totally whacked your brains out...
I like that...

Isn't Human Intelligence great?!

~.~....

2007-08-15T05:47:00.000-07:00

I guess...if you keep controlling your feelings and keep it locked up inside..
Eventually...you end up like a volcano erupting...wouldn't it?

I walk away ...

2007-08-07T08:06:00.000-07:00

I know you love me...but I don't want you to...
Its too painful for me to think back what we've been through ...
I know its not fair...but its the truth...
Let go...please...I beg of you

People are such typical beings

2007-07-28T07:41:00.000-07:00

^_^ Don't you like people say mean things to you even though they don't mean it seriously?

Yesh....I'm sure you don't.

Maybe..you're just scared to admit it that everything they said..was true after all.

Who am I?

2007-07-28T07:37:00.000-07:00

I'm a IdIot.

Who am I?

2007-07-11T05:21:00.000-07:00

Nobody knows accept me.Duh.

Mixed Feelings

2007-03-31T08:39:00.000-07:00

Alright,I'm back...but just for awhile...
You know what..I hate typing as much as I hate writing....*Its not True though*

Its been months I havent log in,I'm sorry about that...
Its just that things has become more stressful now...Besides, I'm a sec 4 student...

....

Homework is piling up on my desk everyday...
Teachers nagging at us ...
Assignments not done....
Arrgghhhh!!!
This totally UNfAIIRR!!!....
......

i need to stop now..

I'm sorry...

Skip my N-Levels?

2006-11-07T04:16:00.000-08:00

I dont know!!
IF I can handle the pressure to go Through-Train..
Lets jUst hope for the best...hehe

Yarp

2006-11-07T03:48:00.000-08:00

Hey I'm back...
you know what... Today was wonderful,I got to have a chat with my bestfriends and we talked about alot of things.Right after schools ends,we went to Food Culture at Lot 1 so we could get the taste of Korean food again.Syaf,Eli,Lina and I had Kimchi noodles instead,while Fadz had B'Que Chicken and Kimchi soup,I think.Then we went roaming around Lot 1 for awhile before walking to a nearby block for us to loiter around~ 'lepak'.But,Lina had to go home with her mother so only left four of us then.We played UNO cards,it was really fun! We almost laughed our butts off with our silly jokes and expressions while playing.We got to play spin the bottle Truth or Dare too! I know,its a bit childish but we learnt more about each other and had the chance to reveal our most deepest and secretive feelings that lies hidden within ourselves.It was hilarious at first but suddenly everything sort of becoming serious.I even cried when I finally told them the truth.I dont know why I cried,its just that I never felt so alive even though it was just for a moment.I guessed I did feel something for this someone but I never knew I had.I always thought of *** only just as a friend.We continued our game and one by one, each confessed.
Let me stopped here for now...
I will continue my so called-adventures next time..
Until Then,
Sayounara...

Gothic

2006-08-10T05:57:00.000-07:00

Wow...so long I havent updated yet...oh well..I hate writing anyway...

Days,weeks,Months past and I'm still don't know what is it in me that make me feel so ignorant and a bore...haiizzzz....
I always wonder if being Gothic would change my personality totally..
well...I love wearing black...and secretly I do have my own bad points in me...
but I'm just as normal like everybody is...
All I meant to say...is being different,can it really change the people around you?..
I'm not sure...I think nobody does...
It just click in front of me...

ChiangMai Trip Is Shoo Funn!!

2006-03-24T08:34:00.000-08:00

tHE DAY WE FIRST Went THERE...
>We felt scared and nervous....
>Dumbfolded....
>Fascinated...
?????????????????????
SawaDikka hERe....sAwAdIkkA ThERe .....EvERyWhERe We hAvE tO say sAwadIKKa to THe PeOPLe ...
Lolz....anyway...it fun when it lasted...

ReaLLy mIsseD cHiAnGmAi AlOTzzz!!!

Stupid girl cant wait for her TrIp!

2006-03-06T07:57:00.001-08:00

Stupid girl gonna go Changmai,Thailand this Sunday!!.....
Havent packed yet...stupid girl...
Stupid girl really cant wait for her trip ....

Stupid girl going to do CIP work there too....
Teach lil' kids.....how to colour and all...
Stupid girl cant wait !!

Stupid girl gonna shop there till she drop .....stupid..
Stupid girl gonna have fun with her frenzies....at all times...
That's all stupid....

Till then Stupid girl will update ya guys later....
after the trip.....kk...

Byez Byez....

Talk to me.....

2006-01-23T07:12:00.001-08:00

The people I hate,I actually do love them but sometimes the people I love most can maybe lead to the most hated too...
I do think my sister is completely mental ....
Hopefully,I will pass my O levels with flying colours.......and get admitted to Nanyang PolyTecHnic or SiNGapore PoLYteCHnIC...
I always want to become a producer.....>>>>>NoT tRuE!!!.....*_* YEAH BECAUSE FIRSTLY i WANT to be a AnImAtOr.......

I like being bored because...it's just me....I don't know.....why.... so don't bother asking ......Thanks

I'm a bit like a ToM bOy but so WHAT!......I really don't give a damn of what others think of me soo.......bug off!.....

You know what,
I hate people having a fit with each other especially girls ............<<<<>>>
Sometimes if it really does happens, I probably kick someone right in the ass.

^^^^^Of course that would never happen......

I love cars........because they're soooooo beautiful.....I can't wait to get my driving lessons....
I sometimes looked at other peoples cars to see which one is the nicest....yeah I know....I'm weird.....and I like the way I see things...yeah!!!

That's all for today......now get out...

I hate you.....

2005-12-31T03:03:00.000-08:00

THE MOMENT I MET YOU....

You just as cold and stubborn like everybody else in your clan.I could not believe you could stoop that low to get even with those people whom you hate .A coward like you and a follower of your disgraceful kind should be punished for all eternity .You and your pureblood
obsession,there's one word to describe of you ~ ' Disgusting'~.That was all I could see in and outside of you.I felt ashamed of myself for believing that you could change for the better.But boy,you proved me wrong.Instead,you wanted power and all you could think about was your ignorant- self.This was my impression of you when I first met you.

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I love you...
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About Me

2005-12-31T01:01:00.001-08:00

I'm a IDIOT!